What Is Love? Baby Don't Hurt Me, Don't Hurt Me, No More.

Insert Cheesy 90's Love Song

Love might be one of the most overused and misinterpreted words in the English dictionary. Love (n.) -an intense feeling of deep affection. That's the common definition of the word. But love is so much more than that. Love is a decision. You decide to stay with that one person through the best of times and the worst of times. It's not love until you truly struggle and still come out of the rut together. You're deciding to embrace that person for who they were, who they are, and who they will be all at once. Love has no boundaries. I'm talking about family and friends as well as significant others. Love is about having a bad day but seeing that one person that changes your mood completely around, even if only for a few minutes. Love is being happy when that other person is happy. Love is just being together. It's knowing that you're not alone. It's also knowing that at any second you can just leave and see the world, but you wouldn't leave that person for the world.
But sometimes you don't get to make that decision on your own. Sometimes it just happens whether you want it to or not. One day you're talking like old friends and the next day, you get a nervous feeling around them and you don't know why or how to stop it. Sometimes it happens with multiple people at once. But I'm no expert so I'm not going to try to tell you what to do in either of these situations.
As for me, I'm alright right where I am with awesome friends and amazing family. I want to see the world and do what I want to do before I feel tied down. I don't want to feel guilty for anything I do and I don't want to worry about how I look or what comes out of my mouth. Because that's what happens with love. You suddenly become conscious of everything you do. I just want to be myself by myself. And I know a lot of people will come along that will love me for who I am but I just can't make that commitment. I know that I can't and I won't because I know someone is going to get hurt. And I swear some people don't believe me when I say that it's not them, it's me. I probably love my friends just as much as I would love someone I was dating anyways.
So here's to the ones who are in love and the one's who are single because there's nothing wrong with either.
This Valentine's Day, don't mope around just because you're single. There's so many things to love. Love that you're alive. That you're here and you're around people that love you. Your Valentine doesn't have to be your crush (as awesome as that would be). It's just someone that (I'm getting a little bit hippie here) shares the love with you. And who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll find out that I'm wrong about everything.

"Pro-Ana" -Wait. What?!

I'm don't exactly remember how I came across it, but I became curious and Googled it. What I Googled was the term 'Pro-Ana'.
The first thing I got was a wikipedia definition:
Pro-ana refers to the promotion of the eating disorder anorexia nervosa 

And if that's not bad enough, when I clicked images, I got this:

Wait, these girls are prettier than this? :

Because, I don't know about society, but I love curves. We're women. We're supposed to have them. 

It gets worse though. Some of these pictures have messages like the picture above:

This is almost unreal. 

But it is. It is very real for so many women in society. 

I don't even know what was wrong with these two girls in the first place. Their bodies were stunning as is.

To starve yourself to look like this is just disgusting. 

I understand there are girls out there who are born this skinny. There are also girls out there that are more curvy. It really depends on what you want to call yourself. Don't let society label you. I'm calling the girls above ugly because they let society turn them into something they weren't in the first place. Something worse than before. There is absolutely no good in this. Why are we doing this girls? The only reason I could come up with is to impress the opposite sex because everyone wants the girl with the "model body". But those models let other people decide what they look like. They're constantly poked and prodded. And even after all the "dieting" and the hair cuts and dyes, the photos are still edited. No matter how beautiful you are, someone will always find something wrong. And what's the point of being beautiful if you don't believe it yourself? Do you really need someone else to tell you that you're fucking amazing inside and out? No. You don't. Be known as the georgeous confident girl that you are and not the girl who was so obsessed with herself that she slowly starved herself to death. 

I'd like to make it clear that I think change is good. Good change is good. If you're going to change your body, change it for the better. Go out and exercise. Start running like I have. Get that six pack you deserve (not saying that I have one because I don't).

There's a strong difference between fit and skinny and I'd take fit over skinny any day. 

Here's me. Spongebob boxers and all. You can't see my ribs. I don't have a gap between my legs. I have hips but they have curve to them rather than bone. Sure, I'd love to have that six pack in place of that small gut, but for now I'm okay with myself. 

Seriously, we're women. We're better than this Pro-Ana shit. 

Besides, there's bacon in the world. Whether you prefer veggie bacon or straight-from-the-pig's-behind bacon, it's still bacon. Eat it. 

Oh I also have something to say about these messages:

Well, you're probably going to lose your boobs if you lose fat everywhere else on your body. So then you'll be a flat chested skeleton. 

It's called being a whore. You don't have to starve yourself for that. 

And last but not least...

Abso-fucking-lutely. They were fucking delicious thank you very much! 

There are so much more picture like this across the internet. Just Google 'Thinspiration' and it's just as bad. If you search 'Thinspiration' on the site, Pinterest, they'll give you the message:






Eating disorders are not lifestyle choices, they are mental disorders that if left untreated can cause serious health problems or could even be life-threatening.


For treatment referrals, information, and support, you can always contact the National Eating Disorders Association Helpline at 1-800-931-2237 or www.nationaleatingdisorders.org



-Please use this information if you need it or if you just want to be aware. Of course, you could be saving the lives of others by being aware of this awful issue. You might even save your own. There's so much good food in the world. You only live once. Eat.♥

Shoes, Jesus, and My New Year's Resolutions: It All Makes Sense in the End.

These are my shoes. 

We all have shoes, but these are mine. 

They're not the newest.

I own shoes that look nicer. 

They're coming apart at the seams and they have a few holes.

I get told about this sometimes.

Yet they're my favorite pair of shoes. 

They're a lot like people actually. 

We all have our flaws.

Sometimes, we feel like we're coming apart at the seams.

But at the end of the day, we're still here. 

You know why?

Because we have a purpose here.

Whether you like it or not, we're all here for someone else. 

We affect all the lives around us.

It's our job.

And while we're doing our job, 

sometimes we get hurt.

Sometimes we fall apart.

Sometimes we get judged.

But in the end, you realize that it's not about you.

As long as you've done your job and contributed to the greater good,

your scars don't matter.

In fact, they show character. 

They show how far you go for others.

The battles you fight for those who cannot. 

We all have to walk the road of life. 

And we all leave our footprints imprinted on other people's paths.

How big of an impact you want to leave is up to you.

It might wear your shoes down,

But at the end of the day,

it's all worth it. 

That's what 2013 is about. 

I must have realized my purpose last year after this.

If you can give someone one more day of hope, 

it's all worth it.

Trust me. 

I had a lot of time to think over Christmas break.

And I think I might have found God.

I think God is in all of us.

It's the salvation we give each other. 

It's the positive energy we put out there. 

God is energy. 

And he gave his energy to us.

We can either use it positively or negatively.

And with every positive, there's negative.

There's no way around it. 

The universe must balance itself out. 

So keep your head up when things are going downhill. 

Another reason to be happy is that your energy affects others.

It really does. 

Be positive and others will feel that.

On a serious note, I'm here for anyone and everyone. 

I resolve to be as selfless as I can be. 

On a not so serious note, I love you all 

so HOW CAN I HELP YOU!?

Ha ha seriously though,

I probably care about you more than I care about myself.

I'm here if anyone ever needs to talk. 

I've been through quite a few experiences in life. 

I won't judge you. 

Just know that I'm here.

"Let's take this one day at a time. I'll hold your hand if you hold mine. The time we kill keeps us alive"